BlackFeatheredPiano

We like to party: www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQwB_f…
Caramelldansen: www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wsn14K…
Happy boom boom: www.youtube.com/watch?v=yBzZQo…
Numa Numa: www.youtube.com/watch?v=JwcgPJ… English/Japainess
I'm alive: www.youtube.com/watch?v=PhPoGq…
Crazy frog: www.youtube.com/watch?v=MRFfmp…
Lucky star Opening: www.youtube.com/watch?v=BuRCYQ…
Genshiken opening(my pace): www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sxx2Pp…
Un balanced: www.youtube.com/watch?v=NuL_Pq…
shugo chara opening: www.youtube.com/watch?v=Un6MM-…
K-on opening: www.youtube.com/watch?v=VBUoUo…
Luka luka night fever: www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQhfd6…
little snow fairy: www.youtube.com/watch?v=2dbAQA…
Soul eater Opening:www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFYnu5…
Hikaru No go opening: www.youtube.com/watch?v=R-cC8y…
Finger Prints: www.youtube.com/watch?v=sbI_9i…
Take on me: www.youtube.com/watch?v=fZ-cae…
Shissou: www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGZyEK…


( HAD TO DO THAT )

So today I went to see an old friend that has known me my whole life, She made me fill cofident, and I'm just haveing a blast now~!
And I've only just began. I'm so pumped!!!
ANy way I relize once again animals seem to really like me, and I love them, so We have a supernatural bound with each other, But no big deal, Cause as long as I treat them well they will trust me and we can be friends, anyway~!


New things happening:
I'll be moveing into a larger house so I'm geting my own room~!!!!!
YAY
but I will have to deal with not being by the river I'm so use to liveing by.
I've moved alot in my life so I'm use to it, But I have things to Remeber so I pleaseing take my first step towards myself~!


I'm also on the right track with my life, I've been so happy, even though I havent fisically done much, I've learned leasons that might not ever be learned by thoughs around me.
I'm stronge and I'll be alright~!

Today was just the best day in the entire world, So please keep smiling~!
and post what you consider beautiful names~!

song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=yBzZQo…

My last journal was all serious so now I'm just gonna talk about something thats fun~!
Cosplaying is fun in many ways, but its so worth all the broken wig caps and motel prices when it comes to conventions.
and Although I have a whole year tell the next con.
I get to go to, I still have alot to do with my new cosplay.

I will Now Be doing Link from: Legend of Zelda twilight princess verson

anywho~ I will be ordering the elf ears in a few days then I plan on ordering the other things through out the year.

I really would love to watch more cosplay videos, so I'm just gonna up date my want list.

- Ears
- Costume
- Wig
- ect.

anyway I can't think very clearly Cause I really do have other things to do, okey by~!


Songs that I like to dance to:
We like to party: www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQwB_f…
Caramelldansen: www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wsn14K…
Happy boom boom: www.youtube.com/watch?v=yBzZQo…
Numa Numa: www.youtube.com/watch?v=JwcgPJ… English/Japainess
I'm alive: www.youtube.com/watch?v=PhPoGq…
Crazy frog: www.youtube.com/watch?v=MRFfmp…
Lucky star Opening: www.youtube.com/watch?v=BuRCYQ…
Genshiken opening(my pace): www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sxx2Pp…
Un balanced: www.youtube.com/watch?v=NuL_Pq…
shugo chara opening: www.youtube.com/watch?v=Un6MM-…
K-on opening: www.youtube.com/watch?v=VBUoUo…
Luka luka night fever: www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQhfd6…
little snow fairy: www.youtube.com/watch?v=2dbAQA…
Soul eater Opening:www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFYnu5…
Hikaru No go opening: www.youtube.com/watch?v=R-cC8y…



and more, . . .
at the Sakura con I will be listening to these while I am siting around doin nothing.
I'd love to meet new friends and make memories I wont forget in a long time.
While danceing like moron's I hope to everyone that cosplays will be funnier then ever, and I would love to give a better impression on people then I have in the past~!

Its 3:04 am
when I've started typeing this,
I havent been sleeping very much lately my mind has had many things on it, and I can't seem to fall asleep so I stay on the computer typeing, and playing pointless games.
But I had begin to read something that had ment alot to me a while ago.
its an anime called " Nabari no ou"
and to sum it up, its a sad story of a boy who has a gift to grant any kind of wish, and everyone wants to use the gift for themselves.
Miharu ( the main character )
is very apethetic and gifted with this power, who could also careless if he had the gift or not.
although He has "friends" Classmates and a teacher who are all part of the Ninja world, who suport him.
Miharu doesnt show much emotion towards them.
Intell later on in the anime He meets a Boy names Yoite.
in which they share the same feelings inside, they don't share emotions cause they don't want to get hurt. and they become scared/defensive when people show emotions towards them.
But anyway they start to share a bound and showed emotions with each other.
{Warnning Spoiler}

But at last in the ending of the anime, Yoite had met his death cause of the power he had choosen to fight with through out the anime.
At the end there could be no happy ending.
even though I wanted so badly for Yoite and Miharu to stay together, and have a happy ending, I knew that it just couldn't be.

I still feel very close to the characters, cause when I was younge me and Miharu shared the same emotions on the inside and out. Lonely and worthless.
But I can't seem to shake the feeling I can do something about it.
Although Yoite Died, and there are still storys of Miharu and Yoite, none of them included Miharu useing his powers to keep Yoite alive.

I still cry about it now, cause they where so close and they ment so much. . . *Sigh*
But I am starting to understand that even if something is perfect in the eyes of the beholder, it can only stay perfect for so long,

and that even though Something is precious to you, You have to enjoy it while its here.
I still have a hard time believeing that, People are capable of doing such a thing. Careing so much for something knowing that they can't keep it in their grasps, for however long they can hold on to it, But enjoy something that might disapear the next moment. Its nearly Imposible to my eyes.

Even now when the moon has been up and going back down, I feel like I still havent said enough.

Pain, Lost, Lonelyness, I have felt all of these as I'm sure most of who are reading this have also.
But finding love to open yourself to is hard, and crying when its over is hard as well.
Although I am younge I have been called wise.
and Like a Wise man once said " why do we fall? So we can get back up again."

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I have been recovering from a unsure life, and I have been considering everything that I've been through and things I might or may never go through.
I know only a few things in this confusing life.
that there are things that will always happen and things, that may always stay a mystery.
And I've learned only a few things about myself.
I know that I have to stay stronge in this world, for many things may blow me down but I have to keep trying to climb higher.
I don't know if I'll make it to where I'm headed.
I don't even know Where I'm going, But I have to keep my head up to keep looking for where I'm supose to be, and where I want to be.
I always try to remember that things are changing, and I can't always stop it, even though I might want to sometimes, I can't change the world from spinning, or the way people are going to treat me.
But I can decide on where I want to go and How I'm going to face the things that face me.
I can only Dream that its a safe Place where I am headed.
I have past thought that this world bored me, and that everyone has to go through Life doing the same things that the previous generation has done, Just makeing it through each day.
But Now I kinda see clearer, each day I can explore new things, I can Learn new posibilitys and reach further then ever Before.
Now that my eyes are open I can think clear.
and feel the things around me, begin to open excepting me.

And although I might not always win, and I might not always be the brightest, or most talented, I am and going to be the best me I can be, and Work harder each day to do the best at whatever I am Supose to do in this life, not only to get by but to Live.

And even when People try and tell me who I am and what I must be, I will stay true to myself or at least the person I know inside, I will Change just like any other thing in this world, But I will not be Changed by people who want to change me but by the things they say to me, and how I feel about the words they speak. Although I meet people in this world I never see, I can at lease grant them a ear to Speak to, Cause weither it be on a train or in the park, some people just need to know that their is somebody there Listening. Listening to others is what I never have done in my past cause now one would listen to me so I felt no obligation to listen to others, but now I can head to the future, Knowing that I will stay true to who I am, not who I was or who I might be.

And I will remeber although I am Younge for my age, and I havent Learned everything there is to know. I will always Stand back up when I fall.
And then I'll try once more.
For these are wise words spoken from a wise young girl.

                                                                      Forever and Always,

I now Have a list of thing I would like to have. or pretty much my want List.

- Elf Ears
- Link Costume
- Blonde Wig
- Sword
- Shield
- Ocarina
- Digital Camera
- Money (Yes!)
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On the other hand, this is just kinda a list I would like to keep my mind on a solid track.
I have felt that I'm going through Reabilitaion, and I have spent a few days just me and my thoughts, I have been keeping the house clean, and cleaning up after everyone, while staying to my thoughts, I've realized that I'm slowly geting better.
and I hope that It only moves up from here.

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Name: Feather
Hair color: Brown and Peach(Pink/Blond/orange)
Hair length: Short
Eye Color: green
skin Color: White/Peach
Birth Date: Feb, 20
Occupation: Being a teen
Outwards Look: I need to Find my place in this world.
Emotionly Stable: Not yet
Season: Fall
Weather: Rainy/ Storm
Time: there is none
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Lease
Season: Summer
Weather: Sunny
Animal: Humans
Color: Black


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Now, This is what I'm up to, I will Probly be Playing my Piano, and watching Neflix on my wii, since in a few days my computer is gonna die.
But I will hopefully be up to something useful this summer, But who knows, lets just hope we dont all burn.
I personally perfer rare.
they shine better that way.
Also I Hope to get some of my I wants, off the list, I really would love some of thoughs Items.
anyway as soon as I get something to update my Devi, and get the computer fixed soon,and all that good stuffs.

anyway I hope to talk later this summer, right now I'm finishing up with the house and Working forward.

Also sometime this next 3 weeks I'll be ordering more cosplay so I hope to post Some pictures.


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Icons X = Yaoi

How to play:www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hmxr9k…




the song: Song of Storms


Loly

I am the most indesisive person in the worlds and since I want to do A OYOCC
I have to choose one cosplay to finish in one year.
but since I'm so indesisive then I'm going to avoid the rules of OYOCC
One Year One Cosplay Challenge.
and so When Sakura Con. comes around I'm going to have a few suprises.
And I'll try to post picture once I get a camera.

and the cosplay. . . and A life. . .

Yea.

well anyway other then that.
I'm still trying to redecorate my room cause I have so much things going on, and nothing going on at the same time.
it gives me kinda a head ach.

but anyway other then that confuseing moment.
I'd also ike to add, that this summer is a time to catch up on cosplay cons and get more money.
Although its summer I dont plan on going outside much.
I hate the heat, and I'm planning on watching anime, sew, and work on some more cosplay planouts.

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emotion: geting to work
listening: The drunken alphabet
eating: nothin
drinking: ROOT BEER

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my icon for today: